Getting Old

I've decided to eschew the whole "day #x"  thing... it's hard to figure out when I haven't written in awhile and it also makes me feel old somehow...  maybe it's the fact that I'm on the cusp of turning 39, which is just one year from the "dreaded" 40.  Looking at my life now, living in NYC and being married, seems like a pipe-dream, even from as recent as a couple of years ago.  I'm here!  In THE city, time to do my thing and get paid!  Only, that's not happening.  This transition is incalculably more difficult and trying then I ever thought it would be.  Oh, woe is the man unprepared to accept his fate- to which I say NEVER!  It'll get figured out, eventually, right? Time to get cracking! Just need a little nap first...